Most of the time life is not shaped like gentle rolling hills caressing the countryside. Life is jagged shale cliffs chipped away by years of wind. Life is the wind unpredictable. The fallen shale in a pile on the ground. Life is the tension of a tightrope wire and the fear of falling. The tension of knowing and not knowing.
Only you can understand your world. Existence is original, dimensional, abstract. Embrace it.